i saw you there
and remembered
how could i forget?
so young ... 26 ...
too young to die ...
far too young ...
too sad ...
resigned ...
like a fox
caught in a leg hole trap
a trap ...
filled with needles ...
needles ... and more needles ...
and ... your sweet elixir ...
the rock ...
white, crystalline, potent ...
a trap ... a vortex ...
is there no way out?
you saw me too ...
remembered me ...
how could you forget ...
all those times
when you felt so scared
you smiled, briefly ...
then, cast your eyes
down in shame ...
itching for the fix ...
the trap ...
inescapable, ruthless, destructive
i watch you ...
gentle despair branded onto
your young ashy face
and that shuffling gait -
feet don't leave the ground ...
i wonder about your saccharine blood
and your sick, scarred heart ...
silently remembering your terror and rage
i notice your ankles - edema ... tell-tale sign
of needles and their legacy
you tell me,
'i need a mitral valve replacement ...
but the docs don't give those
to junkies like me'
i wonder ... my dear ...
why?
why do you embrace this entity
that destroys you?
and ... why do we watch you ...
suffer ... struggle ... despair
in the grips of your addiction?