hole in my soul

drained…
hollow…
longing…
yearning…
lonely…
alone…
disconnected…
cut off…
infinite sadness.
my heart and lungs expand, contract, tho’ i do not feel alive.
the heaviness of sorrow…
a grief tamponade…
this feeling will never go away.

deception…
lies…
control…
manipulatation.
i don’t know why i’m crying.
can’t stop …
can’t start.
why do some people deplete energy?
why does death rape and pillage.
why …?